Friday, November 15, 2013

Freedom as a Christian

Great explanation from my wonderful study bible on what 2 Corinthians 3:17 (Now, the Lord is the Spirit and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom) means:  "Those who were trying to be saved by keeping the Old Testament were soon tied up in rules and ceremonies.  But now through the Holy Spirit, God provides freedom from sin and condemnation (Romans 8:1).  When we trust Christ to save us, he removes our heavy burden of trying to please him and our guilt for failing to do so [emphasis mine].  By trusting Christ, we are loved, accepted, forgiven and freed to live for him.  'Where the Sprit of the Lord is, there is freedom.'"

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Bruised and used
battered and shattered
treated as if
nothing I did mattered.

Your definition of love
destroyed my mind,
your cold touch unkind
Your hot touch
-- shivers down my spine.

Monday, August 27, 2012

Chains

Unencumbered
by the slightest word
or promise you make.
Please let me go,
for my heart's sake.

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Honey

Honey

Sweet. 
Gets stuck.
Bad memories.
You go down like honey.
You get stuck like honey.
And,

Like honeybees...
I come back.

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Letter unsent, words unsaid...

To a supposed, former infatuation (Alanis Morrissette reference)...
Do you still think of me?  Do you still yearn to press your lips against mine?  Do you still hope for the affection of my touch, or dream of what could have been?  When you watch our favorite tv shows, do you think about how much more you'd enjoy them with me? When you watch a movie that we talked about watching together, do you wish you had seen it with me? When you are with another woman, and I am sure you are or will be, do you compare her to me?  Do you recall how special and unique you said I was?  Do you kick yourself for letting this good thing slip through your fingers? I might always, even in a small way, even in the deepest recesses of my heart and soul, yearn for you and ponder the "What could have been if...?" questions.  I might still fantasize about you, our first meeting... our first kiss... our first embrace... our first... I might still wish that you gave us a chance...  to see if there was anything there... to see what we were meant to be.  But alas, I have resigned to the idea that you may always just be an ... idea.  That part of me just wanted the idea of you, the idea of wanting to be with you.  And to lose all means of contact with you, including the deletion of your mobile number from my contacts list, albeit a finite action to take, is necessary and crucial to my moving on.  Perhaps I need this time for my soul to experience growth.... to experience more out of life and romance.  Perhaps the same has to happen for you.  Then maybe, just maybe, you will come back to me in some way and the Lord will grant us another opportunity for us to be together-- and for you to mature and realize that I am worth half a chance!  But perhaps this is not what He wants and the blessing is just in that... and we shall just have the memories of our on/off -- are we or aren't we?-- sort of relationship.   And that is just fine with me.  I have solace and peace in the fact that no matter which of these two scenarios end up playing out, I will be OKAY.  I don't NEED you.  More importantly, I don't WANT you if you really don't WANT me right now.  Oh, and... How can I miss something I never really had in the first place anyway?   And you're not a bad person for not reciprocating the attention that I showed you.  You're just someone who did not realize how much it mean to me that that I showed that attention -- and I am OKAY if you may never know. I will be OKAY. . I will be OKAY...

Sunday, May 2, 2010

This is me!

Have you ever heard of the Myers-Briggs personality test? "The purpose of the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator® (MBTI) personality inventory is to make the theory of psychological types described by C. G. Jung understandable and useful in people's lives. The essence of the theory is that much seemingly random variation in the behavior is actually quite orderly and consistent, being due to basic differences in the ways individuals prefer to use their perception and judgment. "Perception involves all the ways of becoming aware of things, people, happenings, or ideas. Judgment involves all the ways of coming to conclusions about what has been perceived. If people differ systematically in what they perceive and in how they reach conclusions, then it is only reasonable for them to differ correspondingly in their interests, reactions, values, motivations, and skills." In developing the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator [instrument], the aim of Isabel Briggs Myers, and her mother, Katharine Briggs, was to make the insights of type theory accessible to individuals and groups. They addressed the two related goals in the developments and application of the MBTI instrument: The identification of basic preferences of each of the four dichotomies specified or implicit in Jung's theory. The identification and description of the 16 distinctive personality types that result from the interactions among the preferences."--
Courtesy: http://myersbriggs.org/my-mbti-personality-type/mbti-basics/
According to http://typelogic.com/infj.html , the author provides the description for Introverted Intuitive Feeling Judging personality type (INFJ) as: Beneath the quiet exterior, INFJs hold deep convictions about the weightier matters of life. Those who are activists -- INFJs gravitate toward such a role -- are there for the cause, not for personal glory or political power. INFJs are champions of the oppressed and downtrodden. They often are found in the wake of an emergency, rescuing those who are in acute distress. INFJs may fantasize about getting revenge on those who victimize the defenseless. The concept of 'poetic justice' is appealing to the INFJ. "There's something rotten in Denmark." Accurately suspicious about others' motives, INFJs are not easily led. These are the people that you can rarely fool any of the time. Though affable and sympathetic to most, INFJs are selective about their friends. Such a friendship is a symbiotic bond that transcends mere words. INFJs have a knack for fluency in language and facility in communication. In addition, nonverbal sensitivity enables the INFJ to know and be known by others intimately. Writing, counseling, public service and even politics are areas where INFJs frequently find their niche.


Now, according to Dr.David Keirsey, he calls INFJ's as Counselor Idealists: The Portait of the Counselor (INFJ) The Counselor Idealists are abstract in thought and speech, cooperative in reaching their goals, and enterprising and attentive in their interpersonal roles. Counselors focus on human potentials, think in terms of ethical values, and come easily to decisions. The small number of this type (little more than 2 percent) is regrettable, since Counselors have an unusually strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others and genuinely enjoy helping their companions. Although Counsleors tend to be private, sensitive people, and are not generally visible leaders, they nevertheless work quite intensely with those close to them, quietly exerting their influence behind the scenes with their families, friends, and colleagues. This type has great depth of personality; they are themselves complicated, and can understand and deal with complex issues and people. Counselors can be hard to get to know. They have an unusually rich inner life, but they are reserved and tend not to share their reactions except with those they trust. With their loved ones, certainly, Counselors are not reluctant to express their feelings, their face lighting up with the positive emotions, but darkening like a thunderhead with the negative. Indeed, because of their strong ability to take into themselves the feelings of others, Counselors can be hurt rather easily by those around them, which, perhaps, is one reason why they tend to be private people, mutely withdrawing from human contact. At the same time, friends who have known a Counselor for years may find sides emerging which come as a surprise. Not that they are inconsistent; Counselors value their integrity a great deal, but they have intricately woven, mysterious personalities which sometimes puzzle even them. Counselors have strong empathic abilities and can become aware of another's emotions or intentions -- good or evil -- even before that person is conscious of them. This "mind-reading" can take the form of feeling the hidden distress or illnesses of others to an extent which is difficult for other types to comprehend. Even Counselors can seldom tell how they came to penetrate others' feelings so keenly. Furthermore, the Counselor is most likely of all the types to demonstrate an ability to understand psychic phenomena and to have visions of human events, past, present, or future. What is known as ESP may well be exceptional intuitive ability-in both its forms, projection and introjection. Such supernormal intuition is found frequently in the Counselor, and can extend to people, things, and often events, taking the form of visions, episodes of foreknowledge, premonitions, auditory and visual images of things to come, as well as uncanny communications with certain individuals at a distance. Mohandas Gandhi, Sidney Poitier, Eleanor Roosevelt, Jane Goodall, Emily Bronte, Sir Alec Guiness, Carl Jung, Mary Baker Eddy, Queen Noor are examples of the Counselor Idealist (INFJ). Full descriptions of the Counselor and the Idealists are in People Patterns or Please Understand Me II.

http://keirsey.com/default.aspx?aspxerrorpath=/handler.aspx

Not in the "in crowd"

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

One of the things I hated about high school was that there were cliques -- everywhere! The day I graduated I smiled so big and I smiled for so long that you couldn't pay me to stop smiling! I even noticed this in the pictures that it was the biggest smile of my life! Not only did I hate cliques but I was teased and bullied in high school as well.

Fast forward 13 years and I still find this sense of exclusivity everywhere: At work... even in church, etc. What is going on?! If I say "Hi" to you, say it back! Another thing: How about coming up to me -- or anyone you don't know and saying "Hi" first. Even just a quick one while walking by will suffice.