Unencumbered
by the slightest word
or promise you make.
Please let me go,
for my heart's sake.
Monday, August 27, 2012
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Honey
Honey
Sweet.
Gets stuck.
Bad memories.
You go down like honey.
You get stuck like honey.
And,
Like honeybees...
I come back.
Sweet.
Gets stuck.
Bad memories.
You go down like honey.
You get stuck like honey.
And,
Like honeybees...
I come back.
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Letter unsent, words unsaid...
To a supposed, former infatuation (Alanis Morrissette reference)...
Do you still think of me? Do you still yearn to press your lips against mine? Do you still hope for the affection of my touch, or dream of what could have been? When you watch our favorite tv shows, do you think about how much more you'd enjoy them with me? When you watch a movie that we talked about watching together, do you wish you had seen it with me? When you are with another woman, and I am sure you are or will be, do you compare her to me? Do you recall how special and unique you said I was? Do you kick yourself for letting this good thing slip through your fingers? I might always, even in a small way, even in the deepest recesses of my heart and soul, yearn for you and ponder the "What could have been if...?" questions. I might still fantasize about you, our first meeting... our first kiss... our first embrace... our first... I might still wish that you gave us a chance... to see if there was anything there... to see what we were meant to be. But alas, I have resigned to the idea that you may always just be an ... idea. That part of me just wanted the idea of you, the idea of wanting to be with you. And to lose all means of contact with you, including the deletion of your mobile number from my contacts list, albeit a finite action to take, is necessary and crucial to my moving on. Perhaps I need this time for my soul to experience growth.... to experience more out of life and romance. Perhaps the same has to happen for you. Then maybe, just maybe, you will come back to me in some way and the Lord will grant us another opportunity for us to be together-- and for you to mature and realize that I am worth half a chance! But perhaps this is not what He wants and the blessing is just in that... and we shall just have the memories of our on/off -- are we or aren't we?-- sort of relationship. And that is just fine with me. I have solace and peace in the fact that no matter which of these two scenarios end up playing out, I will be OKAY. I don't NEED you. More importantly, I don't WANT you if you really don't WANT me right now. Oh, and... How can I miss something I never really had in the first place anyway? And you're not a bad person for not reciprocating the attention that I showed you. You're just someone who did not realize how much it mean to me that that I showed that attention -- and I am OKAY if you may never know. I will be OKAY. . I will be OKAY...
Do you still think of me? Do you still yearn to press your lips against mine? Do you still hope for the affection of my touch, or dream of what could have been? When you watch our favorite tv shows, do you think about how much more you'd enjoy them with me? When you watch a movie that we talked about watching together, do you wish you had seen it with me? When you are with another woman, and I am sure you are or will be, do you compare her to me? Do you recall how special and unique you said I was? Do you kick yourself for letting this good thing slip through your fingers? I might always, even in a small way, even in the deepest recesses of my heart and soul, yearn for you and ponder the "What could have been if...?" questions. I might still fantasize about you, our first meeting... our first kiss... our first embrace... our first... I might still wish that you gave us a chance... to see if there was anything there... to see what we were meant to be. But alas, I have resigned to the idea that you may always just be an ... idea. That part of me just wanted the idea of you, the idea of wanting to be with you. And to lose all means of contact with you, including the deletion of your mobile number from my contacts list, albeit a finite action to take, is necessary and crucial to my moving on. Perhaps I need this time for my soul to experience growth.... to experience more out of life and romance. Perhaps the same has to happen for you. Then maybe, just maybe, you will come back to me in some way and the Lord will grant us another opportunity for us to be together-- and for you to mature and realize that I am worth half a chance! But perhaps this is not what He wants and the blessing is just in that... and we shall just have the memories of our on/off -- are we or aren't we?-- sort of relationship. And that is just fine with me. I have solace and peace in the fact that no matter which of these two scenarios end up playing out, I will be OKAY. I don't NEED you. More importantly, I don't WANT you if you really don't WANT me right now. Oh, and... How can I miss something I never really had in the first place anyway? And you're not a bad person for not reciprocating the attention that I showed you. You're just someone who did not realize how much it mean to me that that I showed that attention -- and I am OKAY if you may never know. I will be OKAY. . I will be OKAY...
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